Unsure of Myself
The me I see online is definitely me. Me at my best. Me having fun, showing the world all is okay.
The me I present online is not necessarily fake, but it’s so shallow there’s no way to know what is really going on behind those eyes. I always wonder if others online are presenting themselves the same way but feel an ocean of feelings inside that does not let them be their social media selves all the time.
I also always wonder if how others see me on social media is that way. Thinking I’m always travelling, or having fun, or having delicious foods. Do they think that’s my life? But, if it’s online and I post those photos, is it not my life? Am I just keeping myself from really feeling those positive feelings and have focused on the negative all along?
I’m unsure of myself. I’m unsure of how I’m actually meant to feel about my life, and wonder why it’s so difficult to focus and remember those beautiful moments I had that I posted online.
If I can present it to the world, why do I not believe it completely?